Alone But Not Lonely

I Ask Myself, Why Do I Constantly Want To Be Alone. I Often Come Up Short With Answers, However That Doesn’t Last Too Long. People Annoy Me, Things Annoy Me, The World Annoys Me, And I’m Stuck Hating Everything And Everyone. I Just Don’t Understand Some People, Or Maybe It’s Just Me. Maybe My Definition Of Friendship Isn’t The Same As Everyone Else. Or Maybe I’m Crazy And I’m The One Who Has To Change. But Yet, I’m Keeping Everyone Happy, And I’m Stuck With The Same Problems. Different People, Different Days, But The Same Situations. And I Tolerate It, Why? Beats Me, Because I Honestly Don’t Know. When Is Enough, Enough? When Can I Finally Be The Person That’s Not Okay? When Can I Have Fun And Not Be So Serious All The Time? When Can I Be Myself And Not Adjust To The Person Everyone Want Me To Be? When Can I Just Be Me? Everyone Wants Me To Change But They Can’t See They’re Making Me The Person I Am Today. Angry, Doubtful, Unsure, Emotionless, Uncaring, Anti-social, And The List Goes On… I’m Living In A World With So Much People, And Yet I’m Alone. But I’m Not Lonely.

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Sisterly Love

From An Outsiders Perspective You Can’t Fully Understand Everything I Experience. Even If I Try To Explain It To You, You Still Wont Get It. Today (No Exaggeration) I Nearly Died. I Had To Run A Lot Of Blocks, And When I Stopped I Couldn’t Breathe. My Chest Was Hurting Like Hell And The Only Person In The World That Seemed To Matter To Me Was My Sister. Through All Our Fights And Arguments She Never Left My Side. When I Needed Her The Most She Was There, She Always Is. It Made Me Feel So Awful Because Of All The Times I’ve Been Really Nasty To Her, In That Moment It Didn’t Matter To Her. I Love My Sister To Death And This Was A Rude Awakening That I Need To Value Our Relationship Just A Little Bit More. I Need To Change As A Person Because Without The People Who Care About Me Enough To Put Up With My Crap, I Would Be Broken.