Just To Be Clear….

Whenever Something Happens To Me I Have To Write It In That Moment. Some Of The Things I Say Is Mostly Out Of Anger And Hurt. I Would Be Lying If I Said I Didn’t Mean What I Said, Because I Did Mean It. I Meant It If I Said I Hate You And I Hate How You Make Me Feel But Here’s The Thing, I Meant It In That Moment. Everyone Feels Hate Just As Much As Love. I Choose To Write About It Because I Have No Other Way To Express Who I Feel. I Tried, I Tried So Hard To Bottle Everything Up And Keep In My Pain And Hurt But I Never Get Over It, I Hold On To It. When I Write About It, I Let It Go And Set It Free And This Helps Me See The Bigger Picture. Yes My Mother Annoys Me And Pisses Me Off And I Even Hate What She Does But At The End Of It All, She’s My Mom. She Was There Through It All When No One Else In World Even Knew About Me. Quick Story: You Know If It Wasn’t For My Mom I Wouldn’t Be Born. Her And My Father Decided To Get An Abortion When She Was Pregnant With Me. And She Couldn’t Go Through With It….I Try To Remember This Every Time She Makes Me Mad And It Always Seems To Slip My Mind. So Even If I Say Things About My Mom I Still Love Her.

Sisterly Love

From An Outsiders Perspective You Can’t Fully Understand Everything I Experience. Even If I Try To Explain It To You, You Still Wont Get It. Today (No Exaggeration) I Nearly Died. I Had To Run A Lot Of Blocks, And When I Stopped I Couldn’t Breathe. My Chest Was Hurting Like Hell And The Only Person In The World That Seemed To Matter To Me Was My Sister. Through All Our Fights And Arguments She Never Left My Side. When I Needed Her The Most She Was There, She Always Is. It Made Me Feel So Awful Because Of All The Times I’ve Been Really Nasty To Her, In That Moment It Didn’t Matter To Her. I Love My Sister To Death And This Was A Rude Awakening That I Need To Value Our Relationship Just A Little Bit More. I Need To Change As A Person Because Without The People Who Care About Me Enough To Put Up With My Crap, I Would Be Broken.

What Parents Think, What We Know

My Mother Can Be Very Manipulative At Times And I Hate That. Parents Always Feel They Do A Lot And All Kids Have To Do Is Go To School So We Don’t Really Have A “Life”. But Parents Don’t Know The Half Of It. The Constant Studying, Keeping Up With Chores, Of Course We Can’t Miss Our Shows, And Then Boys Are Ten Different Issues By Itself. So See I’m Pretty Busy And That Means I Get Stressed And Tired Like Every Other Person In The World. My Mother Asked Me To Help Her And I Begin To Complain 1) Because When Someone Asks You To Do Something, You Usually Have A Choice, But My Mother Makes Me Do Whatever It Is. 2) Because When She Asked The Day Before It Was Only One Thing And That One Became Several. She Gets Mad At Me, Tells Me Forget It, And To NEVER Ask For Anything Again. Clearly My Mother Needs A Serious Attitude Adjustment And A Some Therapy. Anyone In Their Right Mind Can See How Unfair She Is. Oh Wait That’s Not Even The Best Part, I Asked Her For Money And Got Nothing. How Awesome, Right? -______- Well I’m A Survivor And If She Refuses To Give Me Things I Will Become Antisocial Karen. And She Thinks I Get An Attitude For No Reason. On Another Note I Finally Saw The Movie ‘Big Miracle’ (Old But I Don’t Care) I’m A Sucker For Animals, Especially When Their Helpless. The Whales Were So Adorable And When The Little One Died…. ;( Good Night, Have A Get Day Tomorrow And Enjoy Your Sleep.

A House Of Night Novel Series By P.C. Cast + Kristin Cast!

ImageGood Night Everyone, I Finally Got All Eight Books In The ‘A House Of Night Novel Series’ By P.C. Cast + Kristin Cast With Consists Of Marked, Betrayed, Chosen, Untamed, Hunted, Tempted, Burned, and Awakened. I Fell In Love With This Series. I First Got Introduced Into From A Girl I Met At Barnes & Nobles (I LOVE That Store) And She Recommended It And I Can Honestly Say I Haven’t Regretted It. I Also Thought It Was So Nice That A Mother And Daughter Can Come Together And Make Such A Beautiful Book. I Don’t Want To Say Anything On It Because I Don’t Want To Give Spoilers, So Go Out And Buy It.

Got To Be Kidden’

Just Like Always I’m Unhappy. I Started Off My Day Great, Went To A Movie Screening With My Friends, Had Some Food, Walked Around, And Had A Great Deal Of Fun. That Is Until I Got Home. My Father Called Me And Told Me He Noticed I Had 29 Lateness From September Until Now. Some Of You Know For Part Of The School Year I Stayed By My Fathers House But Now I’m Back With My Mom. He Was Upset, Like Really Upset. I Tried To Explain That Being Late Doesn’t Affect My Grades But Of Course That’s Not What He Heard He Heard ‘I Don’t Have To Get To School On Time Because I’m Smart’ Im Sorry Maybe I’m Delirious But These Two Things Have Different Meanings.-I Begin To Cry Out Of Frustration And Confusion But Mostly Because I’m Sensitive-Then He Starts Calling Me A Liar Because He Asked Me If I Was Getting To School On Time And I Said Yes. WHAT THE HELL! Every Morning I Called My Mom Around The Same Time So 1.That Proves I Leave The Same Time Everyday. 2.And It Just Pissed Me Off That She Was Mad And Didn’t Even Acknowledge The Fact That I Called Her. My Parents And I Have An Agreement If I Get Good Grades I Can Get Gifts. So 91 Average Meant A Laptop And My New Phone. All Of A Sudden I Cant Get It, Why? BECAUSE I WAS LATE TO SCHOOL! Doesn’t That Make Them Liars, Too? They Promised Me Things I Now Can’t Get. They Talked And Talked To Try To Make ME Understand Why I Was Wrong. I’m Sorry I’m Not The Type Of Person To Apologize If I Don’t Think I’m Wrong And I Honestly Don’t Think I’m Wrong. The Train And Bus Run On There Ob Schedule, I Can’t Jump In Front Of Them And Tell The To Go Fast. Im Not Saying Its All There Faults Just Saying It Partially There Faults. I’ve Been In School For 8Months Approximately 6Weeks In Every Month And Out Of All Those Days I Was Late 29 Days. Maybe Theres 30 Days Of School And I Was Late 29 Times, Maybe. Now They Want Me To Go To Sleep Earlier, I Didnt Know They Controlled My Sleep. Only God Does And I Know For A Fact My Parents Aren’t God. I Hate My Parents-Well Their Actions But That’s Apart Of Them So I Sumed It Up. Maybe If I Start Failing And Be On Time, Everything Would Be Peachy. I Try My Hardest To Please Them But Their So Freaking Ungrateful It’s Unbelievable. I Can’t Be Their ‘Trophy Child’ And Then The Treat Me Like Crap. Sometimes I Want To Yell LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE Really Loud. I May Be Just A Kid In There Books But I’m Old Enough, They Make Me So Unhappy. Sometimes We Have Fun And Play Around But Eventually Reality Sets In, Their Bi-Polar And I’m Offically Done. I Can’t Say I Don’t NEED Them But I’ve Drawn A Box Around Myself And They Aren’t Allowed. Some Could Say I’m Stubborn But I Don’t Care. I Cant Live With This Stress And Pressure. Pedestals Are Really High And Some Eventually Break.

Thank You All!

Well WordPress Just Informed Me That So Far I’ve Gotten 50 Likes On My Blog. Yeah I Know For Many Of You That Might Not Be A Big Deal But It Is For Me So Thank You To Every One Who Contributed Into Liking My Post And Helping Me Reach 50.

Good Day!

Today Was Actually A Pretty Good Day. I Went To School And Got There Early. And I Also Got My Report Card And My Average Went Up. From 88 To 91 And I Am So Proud Of Myself.The Day Went By Semi-Fast. I Decided To Take The Long Way Home On The Bus To Spend Time Alone And When It Got To My Stop And I Got Off, I Felt Drizzles. Whoever Reads My Blog Know That I Love And Adore The Rain. In That Split Second I Didn’t Think About My Hair Or My Flats Getting Wet; It Was Just Me And The Rain. Thankfully I Had An Umbrella And Got Home Dry. When I Got In The House I Was Glad To See That No One Was There. It Gave Me An Opportunity To Run Butt Naked Around The House Lol (Just Kidding) It Gave Me Time To Read It Peace. I Actually Started Crying While I Was Reading “Betrayed” By P.C Cast And Kristin Cast, Because The Main Character Zoey, Best Friend/Roommate Stevie Rae Died And It Just Hurt My Heart. I Don’t Like To Think About Death, It’s Sad. (Really Quick Before I Cry I Want To Say I’m Sorry To Everyone Who Lost Someone Or Got Hurt During The Boston Marathon Bombing. Just Know I Will Pray For Everyone And I Hope You Can Be Strong) Then I Went To Sleep For About 5 Hours (It Was Great) And Now I’m Here Writing This. Sorry If You Didn’t Have A Great Day, Maybe Tomorrow Would Be Different. On That Note, Good Night.